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Love is in the Air?
A few more days to Valentine's Day. This is romancing Singapore month. February is always lovey dovey month due to the above mentioned.Sigh~~
I have to agree with Kelly Clarkson's Song. The one that goes,"The trouble with love is...."
'Cos that what love is.
TROUBLE.
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I guess some people will think i am cynical. To write such a negative statement regarding Love.
Who am i to define love? Who can define L-O-V-E in the first place? Is love a feeling? A moment? a connection? Flowers and candlelight dinner on the V day?
I've certainly felt loved on many occasions. The most recent one was the one that when i am hospitalised. Loved by family and friends. But why i say that it is trouble because as wonderful as LOVE is , it can also lead to jealousy, insecurity, worrying just to name a few.
Sometimes the greater the love, the harder to let go.
I've got a great pal who is devastated when someone he love so dearly found someone new. The fact that it can tear someone so sensible apart. That is the power.
I felt my first twinge of jealousy during the early pharse in my relationship. When R4's ex gal wrote him a loooong mail asking him the usual stuff like why he dump her, they are supposed to be together till the end of time blah blah blah. He clicked delete in front of me. But i felt something in my heart. Later i realise that feeling is jealousy.
What am i jealous of? The fact that the love they have is still there. Though he claimed to Love me at that point of time. But I really doubt so. Maybe like. STRONG Like. Love..... still early.
What we have now after being together for 2 years and 1 mth is love build from scratch. From like to love. Pass all the jealousy, pass all the insercurities. the product. The love.
But i would say it is not the perfect Love..... 'cos if it is , i'll not feel the J thingy again. And after 2 yrs, i felt it again. Today. When he gushed abt a conversation with an ex gal that he met...........sigh.