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When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms....

Got this email from stanley. A very touching story.

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my?arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.


This was the scene of ten years ago.


The following days were as simple as a cup of pure?water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to
make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb.


She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.


Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.


Dew came into my life.


It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.


Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very
attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.


I moved Dew's hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I 've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and
see with her. At the moment,the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.


However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging
before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.


One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.


When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while!?talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.


Once again, Dew said to me, Divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.


When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn' t know how to open my mouth.

But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! .


At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.


With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at?it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.


Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.


A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as
normal life as possible.

Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.


She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, Do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?


This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.


I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.


I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.


My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first
day, we both appeared clumsy.

Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten
meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.


On the second day, both of us acted much more easily.She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn' t looked at
this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.


On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.


On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became more vague.


On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.


I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she hadburied all the bitterness in her heart.


Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.


Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my
arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.


On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.


I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry,
Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.


She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more.


Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.


Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud?slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.


When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I 'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

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Dragonboat.

Participated in the 2004 Singapore Idol..... opps! i meant Singapore River Regatta(heh heh :oP) over the weekend.

Never in my live will i ever think i would do something like this. Was "saboed" into joining... the 11 weekends burned at the yucky murky kallang river....the hey shou hey shou... the blisters on arm, the acheing butt.... all over in a matter of less than 2 mins. In fact, 1 min and 48 secs.

It was fun nontheless. Didn't know i can row a dragonboat. The butterfiles in my stomach while waiting for the race to start. The adrenaline in rowing. It's a short surge of euphoria!

Sat was the heats. Was worried that our dragonboat will not get in as we were 2nd for our heats and there are 3 heats. Luckily we got in.

Sun was the finals. Our team sent in 2 boats and both our boats were in the finals. As we set off to the starting point.... i was so excited that words failed me. And when i hear "paddles up!" , i thought to myself that it is now or never!

"PHHHEEEETTTTTTT!!!!!"


And off we go......


I paddled so hard that i felt nausea just after the halfway mark. And when i hear the drummer go,"Stand by to charge!" I just let it all out! Really all out!.....



Agggrrhhhhh!!!!!! Charge!!!!!


But we lost.



We got 4th out of 5 boats.



The results: our boat A came in at 1 min 45 sec ++, 2 other boats came in 1 min 47 sec++ and our boat B( which is the one i am in ) came in 1 min 48sec....


Sigh.

Were very disappointed. VERY VERY VERY VERY DISAPPOINTED.


But C'est la vie.

Someone gotta lose but i just hate it when we are us.

What a difference 1 second make.

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Results.

Results for the Quiz.....

Rank Name Score
1 JP 100
2 Sloth 90
3 jacqueen 70
4 R4 50
5 ser 50
6 Kevin Yeo 40
7 Kris Yew 40
8 Wee Teck 30
9 DKoh 20


Well, ser said its too tricky and she complained JP misled her as well....

Though JP has the highest score is coz ser did the quiz for him after doing herself....Hahhahahha

Am suprised that sloth got 90%!!! I asked him if in the first place he know what is a papillion or manolo blahniks, he say he don't..... what what he don't, he use his instinct. Hehehhehehehe

As for R4.... he is disappointing.... 50%....Sigh.

Anyway, thanks for all my friends who at least attempted this test.... guess now you know a little bit more about me. :oP

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I made a Quiz for you!

Lets see how well you know about me!

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=041121091723-400041

Heh heh heh heh heh.
Hiak Hiak Hiak Hiak Hiak *sniggers*

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I don't want to be different. I just want to be me.

Did a personailty test.

Is it really me? *wonders*

F:

Your Beauty lies in contradiction, controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.

You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things.

Even your appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the sametime.

No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit ofeverything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall.

You seem to be almost a different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you "you".

You enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable youare.

Some Things That Represent You:

Element:Fire, Water

Animal: Chameleon

Color:Dark Tones, LightTones

Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette

Expression:Half-smile

Gemstone:Opal

Mythological Creature: Gryphon,Half-breeds

Sign:Gemini

Planet: Mars

Hair Color: Red

Eye Color:Brown

Quote:"Appearances can be deceiving."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..

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Fable.

Nothing much interesting happen these few days.

Been pretty slack lately and i didn't train for 3 weeks already. Think the other time the training really phobic me. Sigh.

Airle is doing something funny again. This time, she attempt to crawl into my chao chao's (smelly) pillow cover. Don't ask me why, i also don't know what is it for. *wonders*

R4 is back to his X box mode again and this time he is a evil warrior in this game called fable. Actually, you can choose to be good or bad. But for who know R4 will know that being evil comes naturally to him .... Wahahahahhahaa....

And to date, he had killed countless hobbes, innocent people, married don't know how many times and kill them ( he don't even divorce!) Killing entire village worth of people and take over the village. His gold bag has 50K+ worth of gold and he looks hideous with his horns , tattoos, beards and his baldy head.

Hehehehehehhee....

I tried to play the game as the good guy... but frankly speaking, it is hard to be a good person. I mean, even when i help to kill evil monsters or people, i still get "evil" points coz its KILLING.

Sigh. Like what a chinese saying goes," How ren nan zhuo...( its tough to be good)

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Bunny Teeth.

My 2 front teeth has a gap in between. Not very wide, but wide enough for people to notice.

When i was young, there is no gap. However when i lose my 2 baby front teeth, the ones that grow out, didn't join too nicely.

Thus the gap.

Didn't mind the gap much, however people started commenting that the gap is getting wider.....

It made me a bit more self conscious about the gap, kept wondering if people will notice.

Today, i went for an influzena jab. Thinking that since the dental centre is there too, i might as well go and make an appointment to fix the gap ( coz i heard they do it and its free!).

Krisy is with me and when she saw her friends, she was so happy to see them! Greeting the dentist and all.... i was like still at the appointment counter waiting for the poor medic that's so busy to tend to me. Krisy told her friends i wanna fix the gap in between my teeth. I was like so shy n embarassed! Never kept my mouth closed so tight before. hahahahhahaha

Was still waiting for the medic when one of krisy's friends ask her if i wanna fix the gap now. I was like shocked/happy/surprised /excited when i heard it. Its like a tsunami wave swept passed me! Immediately registered myself and plonked myself on the dental chair! ( coz i know their appointments are very very full!!)

The dentist is a super nice lady and very humourous too! In short, she filled the gap and ...

Ta-duh! No more GAP!

Hehehehhehehehehehehe.....

Must really thank my lucky star that helped me to fulfill one of my dreams but somehow never got about doing it.

Think the lucky star for today is Krisy!!!! *Hand Lucky star award* * claps*

R4 didn't notice at 1st till krisy kept flashing her pearlies and when i did too, he broke into a smile.....

R4: Now no gap but u look like Bugs Bunny.

*faintz*

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4 Yr Old Min Pin for Adoption.

I'm am posting this with a heavy heart.

Mambo is my first dog and it is mambo who taught me how to be a dog lover. I was ambitious when i 1st got mambo as i knew nuts about doggies and was simply awed by mambo's cuteness as a minpin pup. Actually i bought him on the day before my 3 months overseas posting. I have to admit it is an impulse buy.

Don't know what gotten into me then but anyway when i'm back, mambo is a very nice pup and he really listens to my mum and my brother .

Mambo had been living with my family for the past 4 years, we even have a wonderful addition to the house- odie( a minpin cross JRT).

Everything was ok till my brother had a huge quarrel and moved outta the house. My mum now complains that it is a burden to take care of the 2 of them.

Actually i don't blame her as my mum has to work, look after my 80 year old grandma and 2 dogs alone. My dad works till late at night. My brother is a goner (lets not talk about him).

I've moved out 2 years ago when i got married and had adopted 3 furkids of my own. I simply can't take in 2 more dogs.

After a discussion with my mum, she decided that she'll keep one and she wants to keep odie as she thinks mambo would have a higher chance to be adopted as he is a pedigree with a SKC cert.

Mambo really deserves a chance to go to a home that someone can give him the time and attention. I know 4 yrs old maybe considered an old dog to some but he is so bubbly and full of character, you don't even think he is 4. He know sit and paw, back to your room (which is to go back to the cage) and is paper trained. However, he is not neutered and tends to mark sometimes.

Potiential Adoptees(PA) please note:

1. Minpin is a doggy full of character and to be frank, it is not for 1st timers. Minpin is very active and a good watch dog.

2. PAs to agree to neuter mambo. Mambo will be adopted FOC but this is a little something that i hope PAs will do to help prevention of unwanted litter. Wanted to neuter him long time ago but my mum doesn't allow me to do so. However, since both mambo and odie are male dogs so no worries.

3. PAs please email me at rainebowskye@hotmail.com . Please let me know more info about you, eg: your personal particulars, housing, any expreience with dogs, any children, who will be home etc. Any additional info that will be useful for me to help select you as mambo's loving parent.

If you managed to read to the end of this long post, thank you very much for taking time to read this.

Lets hope mambo goes to a loving home.


This is MamBO! Don't he look Handsome?


Mambo & Odie. Mambo is the taller one with the pointy ears.

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Please give these furkids a chance .

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DON'T BREED AND BUY, WHILE HOMELESS PET DIE

Was browsing through my fav doggesite when i chanced upon this video.

http://www.itsmeowornever.org/homeless.html

Being a dog lover, it really breaks my heart to see this video clip. This video really touched me, the song is really appropriate... and visuals very heart-wrenching... pple need to see this and understand the message - it doesn't take long to download at all. The images of the poor dogs and cats.....

Sigh.

*sobs*

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No.47

Got a pleasant surprise when my friend told me to check out Female 50 Gorgeous people 2004 http://www.female50gp.com/welcome.php as he is in the competition.

i clicked on it but i can't find him....

Hmmm......

San-d: Which one is you?
Mark: No. 47
San-d: *back to the wedpage* Don't look like you!
Mark: Is it?
San-d: Your eyebrow look like crayon shinchan!
Mark: Who's that?
San-d:
Mark:........... No.... i don't look like that! His eyebrow is N shaped! *protests*
San-d: Joking la, i know you don't look like that la.

Hehehehehehehehehhehee

Anyway, to whoever is reading my blog, please carry out the following instructions:

1. Go to http://www.female50gp.com/welcome.php
2. Look for No.47 (Mark Tan)
3. Click on it.
4. Choose any other pretty girl and also click on it.
5. Fill in your particulars.
6. You have successfully voted for ShinChan! Opps i mean mark. HEhehehhehehehehe

And if you still dunno how he look like.....



And yes, he is single and available.

Hiak hiak hiak..... :op

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Words.

Got this from a friend. Find it very meaningful.....

1. Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.

2. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

3. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.

4. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the
person who made you cry?

5. If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?

6. Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.

7. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.

8. Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.

9. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.

10. A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.

11. Some people make the world special by just being in it.

12. Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

13. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.

14. Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
15. Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

16. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

17. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints
in your heart.

18. If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was.

19. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true.

20. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

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Lord Of The Rings Ver. 1

Lord of the Rings created such an impact that anything could be LOTRised.

Don't believe me? Check these out.




Legolas : My little pony version




Gandalf the Grey: My little pony version ( this is super Cute!!!!)




Presenting!!!! The LOTR Version MLP! wAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA




Barbie as Galadriel! She is simply stunning!!! Love her gown(so dreamy, so flowy!), her hair(the color, the curls...), the way her face is painted- the look is so soft and simply alluring...... *drools*



Ken as Legolas! Though nothing will ever replace orlando bloom's version but this is a good attempt. Heh Heh.



This is simply to die for.

Barbie as Arwen and Ken as Aragon.

*Droolzzzzzz+++++*

Would simply love to have the Galadriel or the Arwen Barbie for Christmas.....*hint hint R4*

:oP