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Bad hair day is an understatement.

Growing your hair long is a very slow and painful process.

I knew it. I did it.

Been growing my hair since the day i've been with R4. This is due to the fact that he like girls with LOOOOONNNGGG hair (as evidenced by his Exes pics). Got to put up with half fark hair, hair turning omega style, tying up your hair when it reaches the collar etc etc...

Not to mention that people commented that i look like a frumpy auntie and i actually looked old. One of my medics actually mistook a pic of me having short hair that i took 2 yrs ago that it was taken when i was like 18! I mean come on! Did i aged that much just because i have long hair?

To cut a long story short.

I was thinking of cutting short hair for sometime liao coz i was so smitten by Yoanna's ( from the America Next Top Model) Mohawk crop.


She look so sassy and chic. But i knew i can't cut that hairstyle coz i have this kuku looking bangs. Always like the China doll look so i decided that if i am going to grow my hair long, do it in a style that i like.

Anyway, what really make me go cut my hair is that one fine day as i was surfing friendster.... i saw R4's ex has the exact same hair style as me! Same china doll bangs, same style! I can't stand it! Not when this Girl is a Lian.

So i made up my mind. To change my hairstyle. Preferably keep the length.

Roped xing in to go cut our hair together. Our plan was to go recee the salons in orchard and go to one that we like and cut.

Fast forward. Found the salon, Ti ta ti ta with the faggort looking hairstylist, thought he knew what i want, sit back and relax and wait for miracle to happen.

Miracle my ASS.

He totally ruin my hair, cut it into a wispy mop and even told me that "i keep the length mah"and "u still can tie."

Sheesh....

Not to mentioned he totally screwed my bangs. Eversince young, i have bad exprience with bangs cutting so i am very paranoid when it come to people cutting my bangs. He cut it when i am not noticing and when i stopped him, he tried to cut it into "pattern" ie slant as if it is like those jap style kinda hair.

AGGHHHHHRRHHH.........

If i have my S.O.G, i would throw it at him right smack into his head/ heart/ any fatal points to warrant him an instant death.

Sigh.

Tried to live with it . But barely a day and i can't stand it. Despite the hair being tied up and all. The bangs is enough to kill. People look at me wierdly and i have this constantly surprised look due to the fact that 1 side of the bangs is higher than the other.

Come to think of it, it is quite funny. Hehehehhehehee.

Today, after welcoming the Team 2 people home. I've decided to i chop my hair off.
Can't stand the wispy auntie look.

So i went to the nearest hairstylist at my place and told the hairstyling auntie(Yes, it is an auntie. Was thinking since my hair is destroyed, what can be worse? Skin?) to please salvage my hair.

I think i felt like Cinderella meeting a fairy Godmother when this auntie after listening to me ranting about my horrible haircut, comforted me and told me not to worry. I took a leap of faith to trust her.... actually what other choice i have?

She tried her best and this is how i look like now.



I am officially a Nerdette.

I MMS to Xing .

Xing: You look so cute! Like small girl!
San-d: Bo bian la, this is the best the auntie can do. Well at least i look like your classmate now.
Xing: Pls la.

Hahahhahahahahahahaha.

Actually, i'm very surprised at how i handle this hair cutting issue. If it is me when i was in poly or something, i would have quarrelled with the faggort, cry and refuse to go out when people ask me too and probably tie or hide my hair in any way possible.

But this time round, i tried to salvage the suituation and i never cry woah. Not even when he screwed up my bangs.

Guess i've learnt to take life easier and so what if my hair is haywired? There are hair extensions nowadays (even Paris Hilton's hair is hair extensioned) and worse come to worse, SKIN it lah!

Whahahahhahahaaha.....

Ok. Acting on a request from Xing to do the 1-2-5 shots of myself, Here goes:
(scroll and see the act cute pics at your own risks. I am not liable if you faint , throw fits, puke , go in spasm or any other medical condition not mentioned here)


This is ONE (1).....


This is TWO (2)



This is FIVE (5)

Whahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Don't throw rotten eggs at me!

Ser and me. Been a while since we last went to take those photo booth thingy. Its cute coz we spend 200+ seconds putting in cutie icons but in the end we accidently click on undo and the pic become the original version. Wahahahhahahah.

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Today is REALLY a good day for a reality check.

I've been back since sunday and time just whizzed passed me.

Its tuesday already.

Can't sleep. Woke up 0530 to send R4 to work and my system is kick started into normal day working mode. Sigh.

I really don't know why but i really have no idea as to what to do.

Probably it is due to the food poisoning that i got on the day just before i was to come home. Makes me feel sluggish and even if i wanna do something, the discomfort is too much to handle.
I tried to put the discomfort behind me and get on with life... go orchard shopping, go partying but..... on monday morning, i felt like dying. Hahahaha.

But thank God today i felt slightly better. Hopefully i am well enough by afternoon to go out.

People been calling and asking me about my trip. Much as i would like to share with people how i feel but after being bugged by reporters over in Banda Aceh , i am a bit tired of answering the questions.

San-d: So tired of answering phonecalls.
R4: Why? Thought you miss your friends?
San-d: But it is the questioning that kills me.
R4: Hiya. When people ask you how is life in aceh, say it is great! If they ask you if it is tough or not, you say never been better! Then if they ask you if the food is good or not, say you eat buffet la!
San-d: *nearly faintz*
R4: Yah wat, answer like that i am sure that your friend will not wanna ask ya about what is life in aceh anymore. Period.

Wahahahahhahahahahaa.

No matter how much i tried to tell about life in aceh, it will not be the same of expriencing it live.

I am ashamed that i am such a whiner when i am there. But i guess it is just a way of releasing my stress of all that i have seen and felt.

My heart aches for the kid that has lost his parents and had to walk 2 km to visit us for medical treatment.

I felt like hugging the little girl who comes to us daily to dress her 2 lacerations (abt 10 cm each) on her calf. She must be very terrified.

I see the fear in a grown man's eye when i took maggots out of his wounds.

I felt like tearing when the lady who has a big thigh wound smiled and thanked me when she i helped her clean up her wound. ( This is my personal statisfaction as the wound actually healed from a necrotic, sloughy, rotten garlic smelling wound to a granualting, ordorless wound in about 4 days time .)

Children trying to engage me in a conversation even though there was an obvious problem in communication with my limited vocab of bahasa. hahahhahaha ( makes me think of the Giordano ad - world without strangers.)

Giving little children vaccination really brighten up my day. Though they think we are monsters with needles. Hahahahahaahhaa

There is a twinge of saddness whenever we drove from the airbase to the clinic. Roads of devastation, the smell of rotting corpses when we pass the mass burial site ( i will never forget the smell), the refugees camps, the poor TNI soldiers that are ordered to go clear the corpses.

Aceh is really a beautiful place, the natural scenery is one of a kind and though i am a city girl, i am awe struck whenever i see the night skies of aceh as the stars are simply breathtaking. The mountainside refugee camp that we are stationed in the last few days of our mission is a nice and serene place . I even seen children bouncing up and down the branches of a tree! It is so sweet and innocent. They know how to enjoy even the simplest thing in life and do not let this unfortunate incident get it the way. ( which makes me feel like slapping irritating whiny kids that wants to buy this and that when i go shopping in orchard on sunday. Hahahaha)

I had to thank God too that the Team i went aceh with is a bunch of nice people. Everyone is very helpful, nice and cooperative. Though everyone is from different backgrounds and we are mostly stangers (except for some) prior to this mission, some of us ended up being good friends and i have to agree that through hardships friendship formed will be special.

That makes those guys cool in my book anyday.

:op

***
Reporting Live from Aceh.

Today is the 5th day in Banda Aceh.

I am still so stoned. I got updates on the situation and all. I know what is going on. But i am unprepared to stay here for a month as initially they told us it is a 14 day mission.

Everything is so unprepared and R4 told me that he is going for his boat course on 19th Jan in US. I am shocked that i will not be able to see him even if i come back till March and i miss my furkids a lot.

I miss drinking my daily kickapoo, watching MTV, driving my corolla,reading my mags, playing kings of chaos,x box, my laptop, going to watch movies, going to orchard, shopping in LV, prada and reading in kinokuniya, going to wongs, miss drinking barcardi breezers, eating sakae sushi, eating simple things like fishball noodle, missing simple things like showering at home, using my SKII mask.... wahahahahahhaaa
It is at this kinda times of suffering that i miss home and appreciate everything that singapore has to offer.

The people here are really suffering. My heart aches for them and though i am constantly whining to go home, but i will stay here as long as they want me too and help the people here in whatever ways i can. What is the sacrificing of the a few months of R4 and my time when i can help the people that is suffering here.

I felt a sense of satisfaction when the woman i treated that her wound had actually improved in 3 days. Ive seen poor kids badly wounded coming for treatment and that the fact that they are all alone and that their parents are dead. I've seen the mass burial site, i've seen dead people( so corny. like the 6th sense. heheheheheh)This kind of feeling is undescribable.

Will update more as the days goes by.

Miss ya guys back home. Don't worry about me, i know how to take care of myself.

Ser, i know how love sick u are coz i am as love sick as ya. And the fact that you are in Singapore, you are actually so much more better than me..... at least u can do all the above mentioned. Hehehhehehhe. take care ger, 1 mth pass fast. miss ya 2.

Mom, i am fine. Don't worry about me. Take care and i'll update you as often as possible.

R4, i love you.

juz me,
San-d in Banda Aceh.