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Princess Airle.

Found an old CD and happened to chance upon Airle's Bb pics! Didn't realise she had grown soooo much!


Bb Airle @ 3 mths


Pretty Airle @ 8 mths


Messy Airle @ 16 mths

Actually Airle's name wasn't meant to be this way. Named her Elle initially. But stupid R4 prefers 2 syllbles name and kept calling her "Air---le". So in the end, we just dropped Elle and called her Airle. Literally translate from Air+ le.

P/s: i saw a chocolate bar on TV named "Airle" one fine day ! hahahahhahaha so it is not just a name i made up! Hehehehehheehheee

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Failure is just another 7 letter word.

I failed the selection again.

Oh well. This time is the push up. Fail by 1. Super sian . Super low morale....... coz it feels like missing a penalty kick.

Sigh.

But this is this morning.

Now i feel better.

Come to think of it....

I can no need to train already!!!!( @ least for this month coz the next course is in Jan!!)
I can relax! I can enjoy! No need to do push ups! No need to do chin ups!

Wahahahahahahahhahah...........

*celebration!!* *jumps around* * throws confetti*

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The 27th.

In less than 10 hours, i will know if i can make it for the BAC.

After last week's humilitating attempt, tomorrow is the the reselection.

Seriously, i don't think i can make it.

And to make matters worse, i think i injured my right shoulder. Can feel crepitus with i rotate it.

Sigh......



Fark it la! Tomorrow just do and die! Why whine whine whine? The most next year do again la! Hiya!

:oP

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"No Count !"

I really hate this phrase today.

Did the selection today. Surprisingly i'm fitter than i thought but in the end i still fail.

By one stupid chin up.

Hahahahhahahahaha

The rigger kept "no count", "no count" till my hand is trembling. In the end i pass all the station but fail the chin up station.

Vvvvvvvvvery low morale.

Went back camp and encik immediately submitted my name for the 27th's selection.

Hopefully by then my chin up can make it.

Thought can relax a bit if i make it today. But too bad......back to same old training and this time is to power up my chin ups!

Gambadeh!

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I've got butterfiles in my stomach.

Tomorrow is the selection and i am so damn nervous.

Tuesday really whacked my body and down supplements. Today did some endurance swim and down supplements again.

Really don't know how tomorrow. Everyone behaved like as if i've pass the selection and going for the course. Felt kinda stressed. Like if i don't pass, everyone gonna be disappointed.

Sigh.

Went for the selection 3 years ago and i sucked badly during that time. Was saboed into thinking that the push ups are girl style push ups and was farking embarassed by the riggers taking the selection.

Maybe the phobia is there.

Today R4 is so nice to take off so that we can go chill out( coz i took half day off to chill). But in the end also quarrel over little things. Feel so silly. Hahahhahahahahahah. Guess married couples are like that.

Went to watch Resident Evil. Its freaking nice. Very entertaining. If i can be half what milla johovich is , tomorrow's selection will be the last thing on my mind. Hahahahhahaah

Oh well, gotta go rest and see how tomorrow.

P.s: A lotta people called and wish me Good Luck. Sometimes i wonder good luck for fark? I need Good Strength, Good Power Or Good Speed. Hahahahahhahaha. Nevertheless, it is people's good intention and i'm grateful for it.

P.P.S: Having badddddddd cramps.....butterfiles in my stomach behaving as if they are having a party at Zouk. Can die.

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Trial

Body ache like fark. Really.

Did a trial selection today and i failed.

In the end the push ups didn't kill me.

The Chin ups did.

WTF!!!!! After training for months, in the end i can't do 6 farking the chest must touch the bar chin ups!

I did it using the overgrip but in the end the bar is too high and i can't touch the bar with my chest.

I can't use the undergrip coz my biceps are not strong enough.

Sigh....

Only 2 more days to the selection.

Think maybe just train till i popped tomorrow, rest on wed and hope for the best on thursday-selection day.

:~~~~~(

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The feeling of Impending Doom.

So tired today from DB and also the past few days of going out, friday's ktv, saturaday's gym and movie, sunday's DB and makan session.

Came back and bathe the furbabies. Now they all smelt like apples! So Nice.

I am also super pooped.

Did a lot of push ups with R4 till i lost count. I also don't know how many i do. Now my arms are super aching and the selection is this thursday. *can die*

Really dunno why i still can't hit 15 standard oneS!!!!!!

* WAIL* *WAIL**WAIL* *Sobs* * sobs*

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Latest Update.

Rizal just called me and told me that the selection is on the 21st.

That makes it only 6 days left.

- ________________-

I'm officially dead.

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Blogger's Block

It took me 1 week to finally blog .

There simply so much that happened the during the past week.

Let's back track.....

Sat: Ser ,Mickey, NK, Jing and 1 went to Tiger beer's Euphoria 2004! MAchi Machi Machi! They are so cute n handsome!!!! Like what the lians will say..." see peh yan tao ah( SOOOOOOO HANDSOME)!!!" Then we went to KTV and sing till 4 am!

Sun: DB @ 0930 (nearly died from lack of sleep), went home to rest, then go to town to chill and watch movie.

Mon: Sick, took MC. Evening went over to ser's place to chill.

Tue: Went to work, report sick, coz really really sick.... MO give me 3 days light duties coz he say the meds will make me sleepy. But for fark? Give me MC lah! Mad one ley. In the end, encik took pity at my sad and breathless and sick face, he ask me go back and rest. Hehehehhehehe

Wed: Encik ask me to took off today to rest. Coz sick bird mah. Feeling better. Jing and NK came over in the evening. Wanted to go dinner together but Jing got something on, so in the end, R4, NK and i met ser at Holland V for some Crystal Jade. *yummy*

Thurs: Did a Audiometry research for just enlisted recurits (a.k.a botaks) From 0730 till 2230 hrs! Wahhhhh....... Like what the bengs will say:" see bey sian ah!!!!(so borring ah)" Wanted to rush down to see jing's pole dancing finals but can't coz by the time i'm done, its over already. And i miss the Singapore Idols!!So Sad. Stupid botaks! SOoooo slow. Do things allll soooo slow!!!! AGGGHHH!!!

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Anyway, I've finally bought the swatch diving watch for R4. Its the black one. He wanted it sooo much and was constantly talking abt it....

R4: This watch can dive on one ley.
san-d: *nods*
R4: I like the yellow one but NK got it already. HE la..... yaks yaks yaks.... then i think the black one is more suitable for my work....
san-d: *mentally block out what he is saying*

Hehehehehehhehehe.

But in the end, i keep going to Swatch counters to keep looking at the watches, go swatch.com and find out the specs about the watches, read in the latest issue of CLEO abt the watches. What finally got me to buy the watch is that...... even this week's latest issue of YOU magazine has a full page spread intro about them!!! AGGGHHH!!!

SO during my lunch break yesterday, and to take a break from the botaks, i took blackie (decided to name my car that and he's a boy!) to Tmall, march up to the nearest swatch counter and told the sales lady that.....

San-d: I would like to get this one (points to the black one).
Swatch gal: Oh, you like to take a look at that?
San-d: I would like to buy. Hmmm...but before that, let me see that watch 1st....

In the end, i fiddled with the orange one, clear one, blue one... hehehehehehe but i still bought the black one for R4.

I went home during my dinner break to hide the watch from R4. I put it in the 1st drawer of the HU LU . Thinking he won't open the HULU for no reason.

Big mistake.

I forgot the x box controller and game is inside.

When i got home from work, i went to check on the swatch. But it was gone. So i marched over to R4 and...

San-d: U took my watch ah.
R4: *covers blanket and pretend to sleep*
San-d: that watch is not mine!
R4: Oh ,is it? i hide it in the kitchen topmost cabinet.
San-d ....... -_____-

After retrieving it from the hiding place, i give it to him personally. He was like "heeheeheeheeeee" "Aiyah, why waste the money"

I was like wtf??? Buy for you, no thank yous still talk so much.

San-d: you like it or not@!!!@@!!~~
R4: Yah la, i will wear to work tomorrow.


HEhehehehehheheheheheheheh :p

Push up count: 10 ( i deproved!!!!!)
Count down to selection: Don't even dare to think about it.

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The Pole.

Now i am in the mess entering this entry.

Yesterday was supposed to go for some course but due to some screw up , our names were not in the list, in the end they ask us to back to unit. I was like WTF??? Since when it is my fault that other people didn't do their job. Really mood killer. So in the end took off and went home to rest.

Still feeling kinda woozy from last night's partying. Didn't intent to party last night. But jing got herself into a situation .... ok... she joined the pole dancing competition and its the final heats last night. Went down to Wongs to support her.

Jing was a bundle of nerves. Its her virgin attempt at pole dancing competition. Never seen her so 'scared' since the day i knew her. Hahahahahahah......... She was like "what to wear", "What kinda dance","do i look fat" etc etc etc.

Ser and i had to keep reassuring her that everything is fine. She's participated in SEA GAMES and all and why is she still so nervous??I mean she's not bad at all. In fact she's good. Her moves were exceuted superbly and i was so excited and happy for her. Her frend Nyla was good too. Actually they were a bit shaky at first but once they got into the groove, they conqured the stage(and pole... hehehee) They song that got them to groove is "Dirty", one of my favourite songs!

Yesterday's contestants were kinda horrible. Some of them look like they walked outta the set of Jurassic Park. "DINOSAURS"!!! If they are fat/plump/big size/ overweight and they can dance is ok, But if they are the abovementioned and can't dance is painful to watch. Also some of them mistook "Glam" for "KTV GIRL" and dressed like the latter.

In the end, Jing got into the finals but Nyla didn't . 1 of the dinosaur got in and 1 of the KTV girl got in. This really must be kelong man. I mean Nyla is good! Nevermind. Can't do anything. I'm not the judge. Sigh.

As for the Jing-NKOTB-Timberlake saga.

Jing and Timberlake met up and feelings kinda rekindled.

"well, it seems that we are kinda together in a sense....there is the basic commitment thingy jus that the commitment doesnt lead to marriage... there is some exclusitivity as he said that while he's with me its just gona be me... well lets see how it goes lah... at least it makes me feel better now that we have moved up a level of some sort... "

~~Quote from Jing's blog.

But IMO, NKTOB has a major crush on Jing as he only known her since MONDAY!!! And that makes it 5 days! How to like someone one sooooo deeeppppp... Anyway, i think it is also rebounding coz he just ended his previous relationship last week! Get the pic?

But Jing and Timberlake go wayyyyyyy back. So i think its natural that they move up one level. But if things don't work out for Jing and Timberlake, i think NKOTB is a would love to take care of Jing. Hahahahahha (so bad)

NKOTB: " Brought Strepsils for her coz she has a bad throat, will pass to her later. Hope she feels better" (Aww... so sweet)

San-d: " What if she doesn't like Strepsils?"

NKOTB: " I know she likes the original flavour one, she was eating that yesterday and ran outta it, so i got it for her la. I got do my homework one hor. Hehehehhe"

San-d: .......... - ___ -

Can see that he is also a E.B.B. but a happy go lucky kind. Hehehehehhehehehe.

Push up count: 15 @ a go. But not really standard ones. Die la....
Selection Countdown: 19 days to go.

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Can we have it all?

August came back yesterday. Was so happy to see her. But she's here for a short time. Going back after 12 days. Sigh~~ nevertheless will party with her! hehehhehe

Yesterday went party with her. Today took off and went town with her and kate for sushi and shopping. Jing met us too for a while before going to her gym class and coming back later to join us. Andrea gotta go back home for dinner so jing and i went to far east to meet the guys for dinner.

NKOTB went crazy over jing. In fact, everyone in the department knows( coz he say mah.). But it is so cute. I mean, ser and i only talked abt Jing to him on sun, he met her on monday, went movie with her and all of us to wong yesterday and he's like totally in 'love' with her.

He gushed that she is the one he's been looking for. the way she talk, the way she behave, her looks.....but how does one know? In a city as cynical as ours,is it still possible to believe in love at first sight?

And to make matters worse. Timberlake is back today. From his overseas stint, its been 4 months since Jing last saw him. Jing was jubilant! Can see it from the way she behave when she got his sms. Then NKOTB was so down. His mood was like a yoyo. So happy to see her and spend time with her. But he also can see that she is so happy coz of the sms.... his mood went to zero.

Jing was kinda like keeping her options open and waiting for timberlake at the same time. Can see that she's kinda confused about whats the outcome of timberlake and her. In the 1st place, will there be a beginning?

Is timing everything?

Poor NKOTB.

Push up count: Never do. Opps. Lazy

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Runway.

Just finished watching the America's next top model. So interesting. I really like this show! All the fashion! The shoes! The clothes! The hair! The Girls! Woooo......* going crazy*

Feeling a bit sick. Wondering if pnemonia can spread? Or is it too much swimming pool water? sea water? sun? I dunno. A bit chest tight and wheezing. Thoart feels a bit funny. Decided to self medicate. 2 extra strong panadols and 10 mls of strepsils cough mixture. hahahahhahaha worse come to worse report sick tomorrow.

I think the training is making me feel funny. I actually enjoy it. I like feeling healthy and all the muscle aches. Its makes me feel alive. And i am really hoping that i can pass the selection end of this month. The 27th.

Gotta go zzzzzz. Feeling sleep deprived.

Push up count: 10 (???)
Countdown to selection: 22 days!

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Row, row ,row your boat.

Yesterday been a lazy day. Slept till 1400hrs coz the night before brought mummyhelen to hospital. Spend the rest of the day lazing and finally at 1900hrs, decided to go out with R4 to Tmall to chill.

Went DB session today and surprisingly time passes fast today. I guess the daily training in camp paid off coz when we are rowing the actual boat, we still can cope. Its actually kinda fun too.
:p

Was already wet from the sea water, went to rinse with the tap water. When i am clean(though wet), there is a sudden downpour..... sigh.

Met ser in town today. Just chilled out at coffee club then met up with big willy and Jp for coffee at heeren's spinelli. After coffee, we went walk walk before big willy leaving to meet his wife and then we went for dinner at Din Tai Fang! Hahahahaha.. it was like eat eat eat n drink drink drink.

Feeling very pooped. And still haven't shower! My hair felt like HAY! So dry! Need loads of conditioner( for hair)and moisturiser(for skin)!

R4 is doing duty today. He did a silly thing today. He left his mobile in the car . Actually, the RP didn't allow me to send him into the unit unless i change pass but i was rushing for my DB session so i asked him to walk in himself. He's farking the RP under his breath and was so pissed that he had to walk in. I didn't noticed the mobile till it was too late. Felt so lost that i can't call him. So i did the next best thing. Called the guardroom. Waahahahhahahaha. He said he'll call me back. The day is ending and i'm still waiting for his call......

Push up count: 11 ( yippee! slight improvement. Better than nothing :) )

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A&E

Guess what? The mini biathlon is really mini. In fact it is micro biathlon. Heheheheehhe
We did 3 sets of 200m swim plus 500m run to be completed in 30 mins.

After that was really tired but have to go for the audiometery test.

Bought mummyhelen to the CGH's A&E coz i'm worried that her shortness of breath and chest discomfort may be a heart attack of something.

Guess friday night everyone is partying or something, the A&E is ok. Not too busy. Soon it was mummy helen's turn. She did an ECG, the results shows a normal sinus rhythm however the chest x ray show that her left lung is hazy.

The dr's diagnosis is peumonia ( infection of the lung). I was so relieved that it is not an AMI or something.

Am feeling really sleepy.... will update more later....

Push up count: ZZZzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzzz