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Leaving on a Jet Plane.

Actually i am leaving on a C130.

I will be flying off tomorrow morning as part of the medical team to tend to the victims of the Tsuami attack to Aceh tomorrow.

I am feeling a lot of mixed emotions now. Feel like i have a lot to say or express but so little time.

I am having a throbbing migraine as i am writing this blog due to lack of sleep and the long working hours i guess.

Happy and proud to be choosen to go . Not everyone get to go and a lot of people can't wait to take over me.

Sad to go course i know i will miss my family ,friends and furkids. (and also my chaochao pillow... hahahahahha)

And of course there is certain level of anxiety that i feel as i watched CNA and read the newspaper. Rows and rows of dead bodies, the smell, the grief level there, the possible epidemic that might erupt there.....

But nevertheless, gotta go means gotta go.

To my family and friends who are reading my blog:

Don't worry about me, i know how to take care of myself. I love you and have a wonderful new year. You will always be on my mind.

Especially to my mommy who reads my blog:

I love you and don't worry about me. Be strong, Hugs and kisses. See ya in 2 weeks time. Take care. *muak*

To ser:

Take care girl. Don't miss me too much. (hehehehehe, i know who u miss more) and i will keep a watchout for jp if i get to see him . Don't miss him too much. Be strong, we will be back in 2 weeks time. P/s: help me to keep an eye on R4. Make sure he never abuse the furkids. hehhehehhehe :op


And to R4:

Don't bully the furkids and remember to feed and clear their poo. And no alcohol after the wisdom tooth extraction. Thanks for being there for me these few days. I love you.

*sob sob*

Wah... Like so pessimistic. No lah. I am expressing my innermost feelings and thoughts. I really mean everything i say.

See ya in 2005! Happy New Year!

***
Christmas AAR (after action review).

This is one of the most low key christmas i ever had.

Had a lot of random thoughts running through my head. Don't really know where to start.

*start Random thoughts*

Christmas eve dinner was fun! I cooked japanese curry! 1st attempt and i'm gald it turn out well. All thanks to avia. I was observing how she cook the other day when she was preparing for puipui's birthday party and realised it is not so hard anyway. MummyHelen's chicken cutlets save a great deal of time too! Just pop into the toaster , 15 mins later ...viola! Black peppered chicken cutlet! hehehehhehe.

Ser, jp, xing, teck and jac came over for dinner. It is a small but nice group of friends. And i prepared the food. Felt a sense of accomplishment.

After which, we just exchange presents and chill out playing x box, watching TV and surfing net.

Jianxing came over around 10ish just to chill out and by midnight, after christmas is here, everyone left, either to go home or to carry on round 2 of celebration.

R4 and i pack up the house and then he carry on playing his new game and i carry on playing my king of chaos( a new rpg that i am addicted to) .

Received some great christmas gifts. A big thank you to you guys! *muack*

Ser gave me what i wanted all year long - the lomo action sampler with FLASH! Hehehehhehe Can carry on with my lomographer dream.

Jac gave me a barbie that i once commented that the face is nice. Was surprised and touched that she even remembered it.

Xing baked some cookies for R4, furkids and me. Taste great and the furkids gobbled down their specially requested non chocolate vanilla cookies. She even got me a photoframe which i only discovered after she left. hehhehehe i even thought she left it behind. Wahahhahaha.

Krisy got me a emily coin pouch before she left for Hong Kong. It is so dainty and cute.

My 70s sisters got me a precious moment jewellery box. It is so sweet... too bad i don't have much jewellery though.

As for R4's gift for me, i went back to LV to change it to an organiser instead. I think i will use the organiser more than the pen.

But i think the best gift he gave me this christmas are the time and the moments we shared these few days. I really enjoy shopping with him, having long conversations in the car ( due to the massive jams) and playing and discussing King of chaos with him . I think i am going to miss the" i coming up to your office now" moments as he had already finish his course and will be going back to his unit already.

Sigh.

And though i never tell him this . But i think his new haircut is very nice . It is spunky and it is so outta the world. Not the norm. That's him. That's the R4 that i fall in love with.

He once told me this ( but i doubt he remember it anyway) ," Stay the way you are. Do not conform. that's what make you special."

I will always remember it.

Have a Merry Chirstmas! And 2005 is just round the corner! Woo Woo Woo!!! :p

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Things ain' t used to be what they are anymore.

There won't be the usual X club christmas eve party this year. Simply coz the X club is non exsistent anymore.

Some are not in town, some are not interested, some MIA, some can't make up their mind ( i fall into this category).

So the christmas eve party will be R4 , me and our furkids. Hahahhahaha

Most prob ser and Jp will join. So see how.

Don't think will be a party. Maybe a nice dinner with people close to us and a chill out session.

Kinda sad that we can't be like how we used to be. But i guess time changes people. We have different interests, different group of friends and different mentality and views now.

But at least what warms my heart is that i can look back at all the fond memories of the chirstmas eve parties we used to have. Hopfully we can rekindle those parties in years to come.

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TIRED.

Can't believe how tired i feel.

Ever since the 1oth, time whizzed pass. So fast, in warp speed somemore .

In summary, what i've been doing: Work, got bonus(happy :P), meet up with old pals, shopping for pui pui's present, shopping for chirstmas presents, shopping for myself(finally!:p), pay bills, work some more....etc....etc.....


Really pooped.

But there are some days which are nice.....

1. Going on a date with R4 to the stuff technology thingy fashion show. Saw the launch of the Oakley Thump. R4 is happy coz free tequila. Whahahahahaha

2. Shopping with R4 for presents. Think he is the only one who can keep up with my speed of shopping...i.e: Mission objective, reccee, storm, leave if negative. Repeat this process till objective is met. HEhehehheeh

3. Going to philip's housewarming and meeting the X club again. Gald to see them after sooooo long.

4. Going to Goodwood Park High Tea Dim Sum with R4, Ser and xing. Been a while man. *yummy* * Drools*

5. Shopping for puipui's present. Learnt that an aprica pram can cost up to $989!!! Wahhhhhh. My Pram (not P.A.M.) knowledge sure increase. hhahahahahahaa

6. Did a deployment with my team and actually enjoyed it despite being totally clueless about what to do initially. Learnt a lot (work-wise) these few days. Gald to have great team mates.

7. R4 got me a present for christmas that touched my heart. A LV GREEN organiser pen. That's so Me!!! Couldn't think of a better gift that was ever given by him.

Thats all for now... feeling kinda dopey n zzzzzzzzpy......

Now must crack brains what to get for R4 for christmas......*migraine alert!*

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Don't Understand.

Kevin ask me to join this.

http://www.doubleads.com/home.php?user=rainebowskye

So i set up the account lah.

Suppose to browse some webby and get people to join you to browse webby and hopefully in the end, all of us can earn some $$.

Wahahahahhahaha.

So who ever is reading this and is interested. Click on it!

Happy Clicking!

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Some people nothing better to do.

Check this out:

http://page.auctions.shopping.yahoo.com/sg/auction/87893601?aucview=0x23

Like that also can?

But i admire the person's creativity and the ability to think out of the box.

I had a good laugh anyway.

Heh heh heh heh heh

:op

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I Love Anya Hindmarch.

The reason? Check out her bags! :op



Chinese Crested with wind in their faces...



Cheeky Pug.



Sammy the Chihuahua (Ser says looks like her JP hehehehhe).



Partying Boston Terrier.



Afro Poodle.



Great Dane Lazing.....



Adorable Yorkie Pups.



Bouncy Springer Spaniel.



For all Jack Russell lovers.



Poodle joy ride.

These bags are so cute!!! Simply to die for!!! Going Hysterical!!! Wahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Tomorrow going to buy Toto. If i strike i can buy all! Hehheehheheheheh.

Or as a Christmas present? *hint hint R4*

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Googlism.

Try this http://www.googlism.com/.

Tell me what Googlism says about you. Hehehhehehee

As for me... Here goes: (Warning: Its a longgggg List.)

Googlism for: SANDY

sandy island bridge
sandy is cool
sandy is my darling
sandy is an atheist
sandy is moving home to iowa a tribute to sandy
sandy is a killer
sandy is a deadbeat dad
sandy is a liarsandy is sick
sandy is "your recipe for success"
sandy is a lady
sandy is in the babybedroom
sandy is saved
sandy is a barely legal brown eyed girl
sandy is getting bigger
sandy is uber's impostor
sandy is pink
sandy is home
sandy is a soldier
sandy is a vastly experienced player in the brass band movement
sandy is my darling is an 18th century scottish reel which was popular amongst the last generation of cape breton fiddlers
sandy is a lady universal pictures directed by charles lamont written by charles grayson a burt kelly production released may 22
sandy is a deadbeat dad twice over
sandy is hold raven read about sig
sandy is a freelance writer and editor
sandy is "your recipe for success" what's for sale in md
sandy is a sweetheart
sandy is a vibrant community offering excellent recreation opportunities
sandy is a favorite at all spah gatherings
sandy is a small to medium sized
sandy is interested in the growth of self awareness and the promotion of personal responsibility
sandy is approximately 102
sandy is approximately 740
sandy is the seashore and sandy is the sea sandy is the clear blue sky or so it seems to me yes i see her everywhere
sandy is being fostered in chicago by amanda and peter
sandy is a painter as well as a dedicated environmentalist
sandy is extremely excited to bring this marvelous tool to
sandy is getting bigger and better
sandy is currently the chair of the health physics socitey electronic media committee
sandy is a family community
sandy is a bible study teacher
sandy is available in a polyhedral version with elevator and rudder control or the sandy is also available with ailerons for better control
sandy is one of our two dogs
sandy is the passenger right now
sandy is a user on this system
sandy is a male lifeguard who will assist the heroes when they hit trouble in the water
sandy is a senior secretary in geological oceanography
sandy is a balanced
sandy is hot
sandy is sweeeeet
sandy is proudly associated with waterdog
sandy is a one
sandy is opening a gift from our sister
sandy is well suited to give you a practical overview of the computer world
sandy is a real estate agent that is known in the community of caribou for their dedicated client service
sandy is stubborn in his concept of how the band's ever evolving sound should be presented
sandy is a published author
sandy is the largest of the mt
sandy is supposed to be by far the most hideous
sandy is my
sandy is a past president of the new england political science association and past chair of the political organizations and parties and legislative studies
sandy is going into the studio to record her new demo
sandy is our bearded dragon
sandy is dead
sandy is an ex
sandy is involved in an episode
sandy is often upset about the attention the press gives her
sandy is no longer walking along side her
sandy is available to answer questions as a service to purchasers of her book
sandy is seen sitting on a floral covered settee
sandy is working on writing lc about two new needed subjects headings
sandy is universally characterized by friends
sandy is a council member for the dental faculty at the royal college of surgeons of edinburgh
sandy is proud to present unique
sandy is a female sandhill crane that was found near a homer airstrip
sandy is a true professional
sandy is still #1 on mp3
sandy is smiling
sandy is an active member of the pinnacle society
sandy is widely acclaimed as one of the southeast's premier dance music djs and producers
sandy is a real estate agent that is known in the community of concord for their dedicated client service
sandy is an advocate


So whats yours? :p

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Pissed.

Sometimes i wonder why are some people so cynical or paranoid.

Saw kate online today. Was actually happy to see her as it been a while since we MSNed.

San-d: Hi Hi! Wats up?
Kate:Hello. Nothing.

Suddenly, i remembered that CJ mentioned to me about Kate MSNing her one night that she is feeling sad. CJ also asked me if Kate is ok, coz before she can reply kate, Kate is offline. CJ even sms her but she never replied.

So out of concern, I asked Kate.

San-d: Huh? But CJ told me you are sad that day.
Kate: (after 1 min) y is everyone so interested in other ppl's downfall?

I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw her reply.

All i did was out of a friend's concern and asked her if she is feeling ok. But she became so defensive and thinks that i am probing in her private life or mocking at her DOWNFALL?? WTF? What downfall? I mean i don't even know what is going on in her life, much less a downfall? All i wanted was to be there for her or to lend her a listening ear if she wants to talk about it. Even if she doesn't wanna tell me, it would be fine with me. But there isn't a need to reply in such a curt manner. Sometimes i wonder is it because that i am happy go lucky and easy going that people can neglect my feelings and take me for granted?

In the end, i couldn't stomach it so i....

San-d: Wah lau, why you say until my concern for you is like i kaypoh like that? Forget what i asked. (pardon the singlish :p)

Then i think it sounds a bit harsh, i added...

San-d: Its ok if you feel uncomfortable telling me, but i ask coz i concern for you, that what friends are for. (pardon the singlish again.)

But after 10 mins when i check the window again, she set her status as BUSY.

Sigh.

Now it is my turn to ask.

"Why do people become so cynical and paranoid of others' good intentions?"

"Don't anyone believe that there are people geniunely concern for them?"

"How do you define Friends?"

Think about it.

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Singapore(an?) Idol.

Yesterday's grand finals was sooo nice. Both guys were soooo good. Also dunno who to vote for.
Actually, don't even intend to vote for any, till....

*do do do do.....do do do* (hp ringing - jay's ringtone hehehehhee)

Krisy (via hp from bintan): You watching SG idol? I watching ley, here can see.
San-d: Wah! so good ah!
Krisy: I know u sure vote for Sly one, i already told my sis to help me vote $3 worth for taukif. Taufik ...Taufik ....Taufikkkkk!!!
San-d: ......*speechless* er... i neutral lah. Both also good.

After that phone call from krisy, both jing and stanley also sms me to tell me that they support taufik and ask me to vote for him.

In the end, i sent out an sms to all 3.....

San-d(via sms): Since you guys voted (in krisy case- $3 worth, Stan's case-$10, Jing's case-er... i also dunno how much she vote) for that TAU KEE... this had inspired me to vote more than $10 calls for SYLVESTER!!! SLY RAWWWWKS!!!

After which i was bombed by them.... and in the end when the taukee..opps i mean taufik won.... i was bombed lagi many times.....

But actually they dunno ( if they read now they will know) i also never vote more than $10 worth of calls. Actually i think i voted 10 calls the most. hehehehehehhee.

It really doesn't bother me who won. They are both strong in their own ways. And its enjoyable watching them perform.

Was wondering.... why not form a boy group with the both of them... wahhhh... can imagine the fans go crazy. Sly's fan+taufik's fans= MASS ORGY!! hahahahahha

Throw in Leandra.... they can form SG equavilent of Black Eye Peas.

Throw in Maia.... they can form SG equavilent of ABBA!!!! (ok ok i'm just kidding).

***
December already?

Time flies.

Was feeling lazy for the past week so didn't really blog though there are some interesting events that's happening .

But i really must get this down.

Went to the Jay Incomparable Concert 2004 on 27th Nov. Though i was very excited to go but somewhere deep in the corner of my heart still pained for the $129 spent on the tickets. R4 remarked that i am crazy to go when with $129 i can buy many Cds or Dvds of him. But he doesn't get it that it is not the SAME!


Jing, me and xing at the indoor stadium. Ser and Jp went too ( but not in this pic)


The view from my seat.


Lights out! Wooooo... Starry starry litestixs!


Jay's FANatics.


Jay Chou up close and personal. Agghhhh!!! *drools*


Jay doing a fast number. He's really a talented guy. He sings, dances ( not very well but tries his best nontheless).....


Plays the chinese flute......


plays the Piano......


More piano shots.....



He plays the drum too but too bad my camera died on me and i can't get that shot.... *sobs*

In the end, i don't feel so bad about the ticket price and i'm actually gald that i went! It was so fun and i really enjoyed myself . This time round, compared to his previous concerts, he engages the crowd more, delivered his songs well, nice selection of old and new songs, nice visual effects, great crowd....... Wooo! :op


Fans: Jie lun , Jie lun... Encore .... Encore... ENCORE!!!!

Jing ( being a non Jay fan) : I wanna marry him. He is so cute!!!
San-d: I know.... I also want.
Jing: Too bad u already married.
San-d: ........... (plotting ways to divorce R4.... Just kidding :op)

CAN'T WAIT FOR HIM TO COME BACK FOR HIS NEXT CONCERT!!!
(But that will be 2 years later...sigh)