***
Happy Birthday to Garlic.


Today is my big brother's birthday.

Opps.

Its already 3am + when i blog this so it should be Yesterday(26th Feb) is my big bro's birthday.

Got him a Blue original 80s Adidas watch as his birthday gift.

MummyHelen ask her 2 brats (which is garlic and me) to come home for Garlic's Birthday Dinner-MummyHelen Style.

MummyHelen outdone herself again.

She cooked:

1. Fish Head Curry
2. Shark's Fin soup
3. Lotus root dunno what soup
4. Scallop with vegetables
5. Thai style chicken feet salad
6. Some pig throtters thingy (which i'll never touch)
7. Stewed Pork

*droolz*

And it is her fault for making me put on at least 1kg from all the nice food she cook today.

Afterwhich Garlic and i went down to Cineleisure's K box for a KTV session with his workmates.


Garlic and me.


Garlic and his Radio Mates.


The guy sings.


The ger sings.


All sing together.


"What the fark are you looking at?"

Though this is the first time that i met them ( i usually hear their voices only as they are all radio deejays), it is a fun session and i enjoyed myself very much.

And Garlic turned 32.

HiakHiakHiakHiakHiak.

Welcome to Unclehood. :op

***
CheeseCake. Yumz.

One good deed returns another.

Thomas: Sandy, can borrow your car?
San-d: *looks up from her work* Huh?
Thomas: Coz i need to run some errands during lunch. Wanted to use Ah Lai's car but his is a weekend car so.....
San-d: No worries la. Later lunch time come and get the key from me can already.
Thomas: Thanks ley. Later i top up the fuel for you.
San-d: No need la, just use la. Anyway i top up full tank yesterday already.
Thomas: Oh. Ok later i come find you. Thanks a lot.

After which, when thomas and ah lai came back , they pass me a quint little starbucks box.

Thomas: Ah lai say he owe you this very long already. And this is to thank you for lending the car.


Open up and its a chocolate cheesecake.


*drools*


After that, we celebrated encik's birthday too.


what a good start to the weekend.

Hehehehehehehehehheheehehehehe :op

***
The Final Verdict.

After the past few days of assessments conducted.

It seems to me that though i wish for that feeling to be back again, don't think that it'll ever be.

That why i say, i prefer the online version to the real deal.

Sigh~~

***
*cough*

Irritating cough is killing me.

It makes you cough at those funny places and times.

*cough cough*

Damn.

I guess it is outta sight outta mind. We'll see tomorrow.

***
My Imaginary Crush.

Absence makes the heart grows fonder?

OR

Out of sight, out of mind?

Hmmmm........

***
Black Hawk Down.

Just finished watching this show on 5.

Though this is the 2nd time i watched it. I felt a twinge of saddness when i watch this show.

Coz to me, this is one of the updated and realistic war movies .( Please don't say what hamburger hill etc coz those are vietnam/ww2 movies)

I remembered clearly what R4 told me the first time i watched this show.

*there is this scene when the soldiers were roping down a sea hawk.*

R4: This is my job.
San-d: Huh, you sure or not?
R4: Yup. this is what i do for a living. That is if singapore ever need to deploy us. *grin*
San-d: Don't bluff la * raise eyebrow*
R4: Up to you to believe. *shrugs his shoulders*
San-d: .........................*pretend to watch the show but actually wondering if he is talking rot (again)*

Come to think of it, this show has been release in 2001 and its been 3 years already since we watched in in feb 2002.

And after knowing him for sooooo long, i got to admit that he is not lying.

It is after knowing him and knowing the job that he do, i constantly tell myself not to take him for granted cos you'll never know when he'll be gone.

Just like the other time i was deployed to Aceh.

There was this scene in Black Hawk Down when 64 was hit by an anti tank missile and 2 soldiers tried to save the pilot. But in the end, they were outnumbered, killed , stoned, dragged to the open ground and striped and being trampled on by the somalians.

This scene keep running through my mind when i touch down in Aceh and whenever we pass by places with lots of civilians looking at us (eg. markets).

Hahhahahahaha.

Told R4 and he said i am Paranoid.

Am i paranoid?

Maybe.

But i always tell myself that it never hurts to be a bit more catious.

***
Show me the PUPPIES!

Due to popular demand.

I'm gonna post the pic of san san and her pups here.



Cute ley.

Latest news: Decided to name them.

Therefore, presenting.....

1. White (coz the pup is white)
2. Black (coz the pup is black)
3. Girl (coz the only rose among the thorns)
4. Tux ( Had a white stripe that runs down his chest that made him look like he is wearing a tuxedo)
5. Tee ( Had a white stripe that runs down his chest but there is a break inbetween)
6. White Paws. ( His paws have a ring of white fur surrounding it.)

Ta Ta for now! Will update when the pups get BIGGER.

***
Pine Tree.

Was digging in the yellow room looking for the crumpler pouch to put my ipod shuffle (which in the end ,i still can't find) when i came across an old diary.

Found this rather interesting note that i wrote on 25th Nov 99.

Think i read it from some magazine and decided to pen in down since it kinda describe about me.

SEPTEMBER 01 --- PINE TREE

Key Quality: Particular

You love agreeable company and surroundings. You're healthy, active, pratical and trustworthy. You have a naturalness that draws others to you and you are a good companion. You've high standards, but when they are met, you fall in love quickly. However it is often the sort of passion that burns out quickly as you lose interest and may suffer many disappointments in love.

Guess I'm a Pine tree after all.....

***
And the Pain Intensify.

Wah Seh.

My nasal pharynx inflammed again. The nose pain +++++. As if some one is using a knife n scarping it inside.

Think it is induced by lack of sleep and stress.

Work pace is so fast nowadays, don't even have time to take a breather. Sigh.

This month's pay hard to earn. Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha.

On a lighter note.

There are a few incident's that brighten my day today.

1. That 1122 sms.
2. The Ipod Shuffle that i ordered online arrived today.

Hee Hee Hee Hee Hee.

I noticed something about the pups.

They are very WHINY!

When they wander off away from their mummy (sansan), they will whine.
When they can't wait for their turn to drink milk, they will whine.
When they wanna snuggle into a certain position to sleep, they will whine.
When they sleep until they got stuck in a corner and can't get out, they will whine .

In short. Puppies whine.

Hahahahahhaah.

Boliao me.

***
Pooped.

Yesterday night was a tired night.

Delivery status:

5 Boys and a little lady. 1 white, 1 black and sliver , 4 salt and pepper.

Didn't sleep till this morning at 0700hrs but then the curious airle and cookie kept wanting to peep into the tent. And hence the "cat"fight. Had to do "guard" duty for them to keep them from fighting.

Shag level: +++++

On a lighter note.

Feel that sometimes my friends have a incredible sense of humor. Maybe some will call it lame. But i call it funny.

Eg: When yesterday i changed my Msn nick to "Boo! I have a CRUSH! ", Alex immediately msned me saying:

Alex: You have a crush? Omigosh? Who? Hheehehehehehe. You want your crush's electricity supply to be cut off arh?

San-d: .......

They have this silly joke saying that R4 being the job he is in will make life hell for people who is a threat to him.

San-d: How is he going to Taiwan to cut off zaizai and jay's electricity supply? Or how is he going to japan to cut off Takeshi Kaneshiro's electricity supply?

After a while, alex replied.

Alex: never underestimate the frog ppl.

*Faintz*

Hahahahahahhahahaahahahaha.

This is just one incident.

This morning got another sms from Zhang(3) men(2) .

Sidetrack: Zhang men is the president of the lame club formed in Aceh. Hence zhang men .(means clan leader in chinese swordfighting period kinda setting .)

Zhang Men (ZM): Help me congratulate your dog.... She's lucky the midwife never screw up.

San-d: Thanks a lot huh. (coz i am the midwife he is refering to.)

ZM: So wat r u going to do with the pups??

San-d: *Feeling a bit pissed at the previous sms , decided to be as nonsense as possible* Later boil soup with it la.

ZM: I thought so too.... can help in losing weight.

San-d: Joking la. Will sell them when they are bigger.

ZM: How much? I think my fren interested..... She thinks the soup is very nutritious.

San-d:*Faintz*

With friends like these, who needs to go watch comedies?

:op

***
Life is Random. Enjoy Uncertainty.

Saw this on the Ipod shuffle's website. Cool slogan. This line best describe my feelings now.

Never partied so hard in any of the CNYs that i had. Maybe due to the fact that this CNY doesn't really feel like a CNY. Hahahhahahaha.

Got myself wasted on the 1st day of CNY. Guess it was due to the fact that i didn't eat much at mummy's place, we are at O's, drinks are cheap, losta action to see, great company and that R4 pissed me off BIG time which leds to why i go party in the 1st place.

To cut long story short.

Ser got worried when at almost 0430hrs i didn't sms her (coz i was supposed to when i got home), she activated R4 to look for me. He didn't wanna go initially coz he was :

1. Lazy
2. Tired ( coz just back from mahjong session at poonster's place)
3. Equally pissed with me.

But Ser used the ultimatium.

"If you are not going down, then i'll go down to look for her."

So poor R4 gotta rush all the way down to O to look for me and bring me home.

Hahahahahahahaha

But the aftermath is worse.

I got a MASSIVE hangover the next day and was damn miserable.

The rest of the days just whizzed past.

Was supposed to go visiting today but my darling san san is having her contractions and she may be due earlier then the estimated date which is on Valentine's day!

So being a good mummy to my furkid, i stayed home to take care of her. Hence the entry of the blog.

Enjoy Uncertainty.

Thats what i'm doing.

:op

***
GONG XI FA CAI! HONG BAO NA LAI!

Time passes so fast!

Today is the 1st day of the lunar new year.

Just back from partying with Ser and Jing.

Anyway, Happy Lunar New Year! Pretty ones stay pretty. Handsome ones stay handsome. Cute ones stay cute. Ugly ones please stay at home.

Heheheheheheh. Just kidding!

:op

***
Why Don't Married Couples Hold Hands?

Chanced upon http://clumzy.blogspot.com/ and found this very interesting post.


After dinner our young couple friends noticed that Mrs. clumzy and I never hold hands.
Now I disagree with using the word "never" but this has been an often mentioned puzzlement to them as to why a married couple who supposedly love each other do not use so simple expression of love as holding hands.
I have on occassion attempted to explain this to them but I felt that this time a better explanation was possible by way of analogy.
I have recounted the essense of the story below and I hope that you find this as profound as they.



A man named H, has dreamed of owning a Ferrari convertible since he was a little boy.
He has grown up with this dream seeing many a Ferrari over the years, even having the thrill of being close enough to touch a door handle or two.
Now after years of saving and wise investments, a middle-aged H purchases the beloved Ferrari convertible of his dreams and finally has the opportunity to see what this amazing machine can do!
He pulls the top down, opens up the throttle, bangs it through the gears and sends it screaming to redline prompting the neighbours to file complaints with the local police.
H has come to appreciate the rush of adrenaline, the exhilaration of the sweet mechanical rythme, the exhaustion of a long hard drive and the loving duty of careful maitenance.
After such intimate knowledge and experience, can H ever return to the thrill of simply touching the door handle?

E'nuff said. :oP

***
Do we need Drama to make a relationship work?

Watched Ghost on 5 just now. Not the whole show though. Just drips and drabs of it. Came home late after having dinner and some impromtu shopping with R4, Avia and Bb Rayner.

When i saw the part when patrick swayze told demi moore about he would give anything to be able to hold her again thru Whoopi goldberg, i nearly teared.
Shows like this always make me have that Sour feeling in my heart.

That feeling is like the feeling that i felt when i am going through a break up.

Another show that makes me exprience this feeling is the City of Angels when Nicholas Cage said that he would rather have a day to hold, touch, feel her(meg ryan) then eternity without.

Though these are only shows but i can feel that the love they had for each other is so real, so intense.

Sometimes i feel that in a city as cynical as ours, will i ever exprience it . Not really personally but also through expriences of people close to me or around me.

Nowadays all i hear from friends around me are things like break ups, scandals, one night stands, no strings attached, psycho stalking and the list can go on and on and on.

One guy could be married but still having scandals with girls he met through clubbing, and he still whines that his wife is suspicious of him whenever he go clubbing.
Another married one could be going to geylang and i can assure you that he is not going there for the food.

In a city like ours, with infinite possibilities, has monogramy become too much to expect?

Another girl friend of mine could really give up everything she has for this guy when he is still pinning for his ex. Sometimes i wonder, how can she get to the future if the past is still present?

Another close girlfriend of mine is being controlled by someone obviously wrong for her through his mind games, in other words, stringing her along like a puppet.
But she still hopes for him, hoping that he'll change and they can be happy again. Afterall, they had happier times.

Is hope a drug that she need to go off of, or is it keeping her alive?

I guess these are examples of Love gone wrong.

I'm sure that everything started out with love but with things like temptation, jealousy and selfishness poisoned it.

Oh well.

Who am i to judge anyway, i too have my fair share of problems when it comes to relationships.

But in the matters of love, how do you know when it's right?

Point to ponder.

***
Been a busy week.

Back to work after my on and off break . And the working pace is like 2 Fast 2 Furious with NOS activated.There are a lotta changes in the work structure and i don't know to be happy or sad that it is happening.

Happy coz it is happening for a good cause. It will create a lot of opportunities and new expriences for us.

Sad? Coz have to work 10 x harder than what we are usually doing. Hahahahhaha~~~

Haven't been sleeping well. The furkids are very naughty at night. They like to fight and play at my side of the bed at night. Don't know whats up with them.

R4 surprises me by agreeing to go to KTV on tuesday when i casually remarked to Kelene and chong over dinner, "lets go KTV!"
Kelene was like ,"ok!"*grins*

I was half expecting R4 to protest but he say ok. I was so SURPRISED!*Eye Popping*
(R4 is known to be Anti KTV)

More surprsing is that later at K-Box, he actually sings! Hahahahaahah.

There is this song by Ping Guan and Fish Leong called "Ming Ming Hen Ai Ni" which literally means obviously i am in love with you that i like very much. Never been happier that R4 actually sing with me(since it is a duet)! I was have expecting to sing with the analog on by myself but surprisingly he took the mic and sing along too!

Its all this little things that makes my day.

There is this part in the MTV that i think it is probably what R4 would say to me. I am always whining that he don't say all the usual "I Love You" and the "I Miss You" to me.

(The following conversation is LOOSELY translated from the mandarin MTV)

Ping Guan(PG): i...er....i...Love......(wanted to say i love you)
Fish Leong: *Slaps him* There is no need to keep saying that you love me. Whats matters most is the true love you felt for me deep in your heart.
PG: ........*speechless*

HahahahahahhaHahhahaha....

The reason why Fish slaps him is coz earlier in the MTV, there is this "crazy love sick" girl who had been dumped by her boyfriend at their cafe(PG and fish runs a cafe in this mtv) makes PG say I love you everytime she goes to their cafe. This is coz PG had asked her is there anything he can do to help her when he witnessed her being dumped by her boyfriend.
Obviously Fish loves PG a lot and is pissed when this girl wants her guy to keep saying I love you.

Hence the part.

Xing li de ai cai shi zhen zhen de ai........

***
Bad hair day is an understatement.

Growing your hair long is a very slow and painful process.

I knew it. I did it.

Been growing my hair since the day i've been with R4. This is due to the fact that he like girls with LOOOOONNNGGG hair (as evidenced by his Exes pics). Got to put up with half fark hair, hair turning omega style, tying up your hair when it reaches the collar etc etc...

Not to mention that people commented that i look like a frumpy auntie and i actually looked old. One of my medics actually mistook a pic of me having short hair that i took 2 yrs ago that it was taken when i was like 18! I mean come on! Did i aged that much just because i have long hair?

To cut a long story short.

I was thinking of cutting short hair for sometime liao coz i was so smitten by Yoanna's ( from the America Next Top Model) Mohawk crop.


She look so sassy and chic. But i knew i can't cut that hairstyle coz i have this kuku looking bangs. Always like the China doll look so i decided that if i am going to grow my hair long, do it in a style that i like.

Anyway, what really make me go cut my hair is that one fine day as i was surfing friendster.... i saw R4's ex has the exact same hair style as me! Same china doll bangs, same style! I can't stand it! Not when this Girl is a Lian.

So i made up my mind. To change my hairstyle. Preferably keep the length.

Roped xing in to go cut our hair together. Our plan was to go recee the salons in orchard and go to one that we like and cut.

Fast forward. Found the salon, Ti ta ti ta with the faggort looking hairstylist, thought he knew what i want, sit back and relax and wait for miracle to happen.

Miracle my ASS.

He totally ruin my hair, cut it into a wispy mop and even told me that "i keep the length mah"and "u still can tie."

Sheesh....

Not to mentioned he totally screwed my bangs. Eversince young, i have bad exprience with bangs cutting so i am very paranoid when it come to people cutting my bangs. He cut it when i am not noticing and when i stopped him, he tried to cut it into "pattern" ie slant as if it is like those jap style kinda hair.

AGGHHHHHRRHHH.........

If i have my S.O.G, i would throw it at him right smack into his head/ heart/ any fatal points to warrant him an instant death.

Sigh.

Tried to live with it . But barely a day and i can't stand it. Despite the hair being tied up and all. The bangs is enough to kill. People look at me wierdly and i have this constantly surprised look due to the fact that 1 side of the bangs is higher than the other.

Come to think of it, it is quite funny. Hehehehhehehee.

Today, after welcoming the Team 2 people home. I've decided to i chop my hair off.
Can't stand the wispy auntie look.

So i went to the nearest hairstylist at my place and told the hairstyling auntie(Yes, it is an auntie. Was thinking since my hair is destroyed, what can be worse? Skin?) to please salvage my hair.

I think i felt like Cinderella meeting a fairy Godmother when this auntie after listening to me ranting about my horrible haircut, comforted me and told me not to worry. I took a leap of faith to trust her.... actually what other choice i have?

She tried her best and this is how i look like now.



I am officially a Nerdette.

I MMS to Xing .

Xing: You look so cute! Like small girl!
San-d: Bo bian la, this is the best the auntie can do. Well at least i look like your classmate now.
Xing: Pls la.

Hahahhahahahahahahaha.

Actually, i'm very surprised at how i handle this hair cutting issue. If it is me when i was in poly or something, i would have quarrelled with the faggort, cry and refuse to go out when people ask me too and probably tie or hide my hair in any way possible.

But this time round, i tried to salvage the suituation and i never cry woah. Not even when he screwed up my bangs.

Guess i've learnt to take life easier and so what if my hair is haywired? There are hair extensions nowadays (even Paris Hilton's hair is hair extensioned) and worse come to worse, SKIN it lah!

Whahahahhahahaaha.....

Ok. Acting on a request from Xing to do the 1-2-5 shots of myself, Here goes:
(scroll and see the act cute pics at your own risks. I am not liable if you faint , throw fits, puke , go in spasm or any other medical condition not mentioned here)


This is ONE (1).....


This is TWO (2)



This is FIVE (5)

Whahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Don't throw rotten eggs at me!

Ser and me. Been a while since we last went to take those photo booth thingy. Its cute coz we spend 200+ seconds putting in cutie icons but in the end we accidently click on undo and the pic become the original version. Wahahahhahahah.

***
Today is REALLY a good day for a reality check.

I've been back since sunday and time just whizzed passed me.

Its tuesday already.

Can't sleep. Woke up 0530 to send R4 to work and my system is kick started into normal day working mode. Sigh.

I really don't know why but i really have no idea as to what to do.

Probably it is due to the food poisoning that i got on the day just before i was to come home. Makes me feel sluggish and even if i wanna do something, the discomfort is too much to handle.
I tried to put the discomfort behind me and get on with life... go orchard shopping, go partying but..... on monday morning, i felt like dying. Hahahaha.

But thank God today i felt slightly better. Hopefully i am well enough by afternoon to go out.

People been calling and asking me about my trip. Much as i would like to share with people how i feel but after being bugged by reporters over in Banda Aceh , i am a bit tired of answering the questions.

San-d: So tired of answering phonecalls.
R4: Why? Thought you miss your friends?
San-d: But it is the questioning that kills me.
R4: Hiya. When people ask you how is life in aceh, say it is great! If they ask you if it is tough or not, you say never been better! Then if they ask you if the food is good or not, say you eat buffet la!
San-d: *nearly faintz*
R4: Yah wat, answer like that i am sure that your friend will not wanna ask ya about what is life in aceh anymore. Period.

Wahahahahhahahahahaa.

No matter how much i tried to tell about life in aceh, it will not be the same of expriencing it live.

I am ashamed that i am such a whiner when i am there. But i guess it is just a way of releasing my stress of all that i have seen and felt.

My heart aches for the kid that has lost his parents and had to walk 2 km to visit us for medical treatment.

I felt like hugging the little girl who comes to us daily to dress her 2 lacerations (abt 10 cm each) on her calf. She must be very terrified.

I see the fear in a grown man's eye when i took maggots out of his wounds.

I felt like tearing when the lady who has a big thigh wound smiled and thanked me when she i helped her clean up her wound. ( This is my personal statisfaction as the wound actually healed from a necrotic, sloughy, rotten garlic smelling wound to a granualting, ordorless wound in about 4 days time .)

Children trying to engage me in a conversation even though there was an obvious problem in communication with my limited vocab of bahasa. hahahhahaha ( makes me think of the Giordano ad - world without strangers.)

Giving little children vaccination really brighten up my day. Though they think we are monsters with needles. Hahahahahaahhaa

There is a twinge of saddness whenever we drove from the airbase to the clinic. Roads of devastation, the smell of rotting corpses when we pass the mass burial site ( i will never forget the smell), the refugees camps, the poor TNI soldiers that are ordered to go clear the corpses.

Aceh is really a beautiful place, the natural scenery is one of a kind and though i am a city girl, i am awe struck whenever i see the night skies of aceh as the stars are simply breathtaking. The mountainside refugee camp that we are stationed in the last few days of our mission is a nice and serene place . I even seen children bouncing up and down the branches of a tree! It is so sweet and innocent. They know how to enjoy even the simplest thing in life and do not let this unfortunate incident get it the way. ( which makes me feel like slapping irritating whiny kids that wants to buy this and that when i go shopping in orchard on sunday. Hahahaha)

I had to thank God too that the Team i went aceh with is a bunch of nice people. Everyone is very helpful, nice and cooperative. Though everyone is from different backgrounds and we are mostly stangers (except for some) prior to this mission, some of us ended up being good friends and i have to agree that through hardships friendship formed will be special.

That makes those guys cool in my book anyday.

:op

***
Reporting Live from Aceh.

Today is the 5th day in Banda Aceh.

I am still so stoned. I got updates on the situation and all. I know what is going on. But i am unprepared to stay here for a month as initially they told us it is a 14 day mission.

Everything is so unprepared and R4 told me that he is going for his boat course on 19th Jan in US. I am shocked that i will not be able to see him even if i come back till March and i miss my furkids a lot.

I miss drinking my daily kickapoo, watching MTV, driving my corolla,reading my mags, playing kings of chaos,x box, my laptop, going to watch movies, going to orchard, shopping in LV, prada and reading in kinokuniya, going to wongs, miss drinking barcardi breezers, eating sakae sushi, eating simple things like fishball noodle, missing simple things like showering at home, using my SKII mask.... wahahahahahhaaa
It is at this kinda times of suffering that i miss home and appreciate everything that singapore has to offer.

The people here are really suffering. My heart aches for them and though i am constantly whining to go home, but i will stay here as long as they want me too and help the people here in whatever ways i can. What is the sacrificing of the a few months of R4 and my time when i can help the people that is suffering here.

I felt a sense of satisfaction when the woman i treated that her wound had actually improved in 3 days. Ive seen poor kids badly wounded coming for treatment and that the fact that they are all alone and that their parents are dead. I've seen the mass burial site, i've seen dead people( so corny. like the 6th sense. heheheheheh)This kind of feeling is undescribable.

Will update more as the days goes by.

Miss ya guys back home. Don't worry about me, i know how to take care of myself.

Ser, i know how love sick u are coz i am as love sick as ya. And the fact that you are in Singapore, you are actually so much more better than me..... at least u can do all the above mentioned. Hehehhehehhe. take care ger, 1 mth pass fast. miss ya 2.

Mom, i am fine. Don't worry about me. Take care and i'll update you as often as possible.

R4, i love you.

juz me,
San-d in Banda Aceh.

***
Leaving on a Jet Plane.

Actually i am leaving on a C130.

I will be flying off tomorrow morning as part of the medical team to tend to the victims of the Tsuami attack to Aceh tomorrow.

I am feeling a lot of mixed emotions now. Feel like i have a lot to say or express but so little time.

I am having a throbbing migraine as i am writing this blog due to lack of sleep and the long working hours i guess.

Happy and proud to be choosen to go . Not everyone get to go and a lot of people can't wait to take over me.

Sad to go course i know i will miss my family ,friends and furkids. (and also my chaochao pillow... hahahahahha)

And of course there is certain level of anxiety that i feel as i watched CNA and read the newspaper. Rows and rows of dead bodies, the smell, the grief level there, the possible epidemic that might erupt there.....

But nevertheless, gotta go means gotta go.

To my family and friends who are reading my blog:

Don't worry about me, i know how to take care of myself. I love you and have a wonderful new year. You will always be on my mind.

Especially to my mommy who reads my blog:

I love you and don't worry about me. Be strong, Hugs and kisses. See ya in 2 weeks time. Take care. *muak*

To ser:

Take care girl. Don't miss me too much. (hehehehehe, i know who u miss more) and i will keep a watchout for jp if i get to see him . Don't miss him too much. Be strong, we will be back in 2 weeks time. P/s: help me to keep an eye on R4. Make sure he never abuse the furkids. hehhehehhehe :op


And to R4:

Don't bully the furkids and remember to feed and clear their poo. And no alcohol after the wisdom tooth extraction. Thanks for being there for me these few days. I love you.

*sob sob*

Wah... Like so pessimistic. No lah. I am expressing my innermost feelings and thoughts. I really mean everything i say.

See ya in 2005! Happy New Year!